[The questions come sooner than she'd like, the exact ones she's not wanting to hear. Hearing them means she has to answer, and she's not ready to face the truth that comes with being cornered into giving a response. Of course, Alina wouldn't press her if she absolutely refused. and she could, she thinks, break down just enough that she isn't pressed.
But there doesn't need to be manipulation here, not between someone that's become so dear to her. Alina has done nothing here but whisper reassurances and love her for who she is, all of her brokenness and faults laid bare out in the open. If she's said this much, she can tell the truth. Just a bit more, it won't hurt anything.]
I had no other choice. He never would have let me go otherwise.
[She's still crying, but she lifts her head and tries to compose herself a little. Wiping at her tears, she ignores the way her lip quivers and tries to keep speaking despite the way it makes her voice tremble.]
The Doctor and I, we -
[Pausing, she swallows the lump that's formed in her throat.]
There's plenty of ways to say you love someone. And even if we never have said it in words, the Doctor and I, our love was so strong that we became dangerous together. So dangerous that losing me meant the Doctor became something I hope you never have to see. He was willing to do anything, to sacrifice the entire universe, if it meant bringing me back. And if we had stayed together, it would have cost the entire universe. As long as we were together, everyone else was at risk. When I realized, I knew I had to make him forget. If he didn't remember, he could move on. The universe would be safe, and he would be able to be happy. I sacrificed the thing I love the most to ensure that.
[Only now she's here, where two Doctors are. Neither of them know the way their story ends, neither of them know that she dies. She doesn't think she needs to tell Alina that. That much should be obvious with the way she's just broken down here. Of course, it also may give some insight into why she's terrified of forgetting him. It's all that will be left in the end. Her memories of him and what they had together. But Alina is right. She'll do what needs to be done in the end, if it means protecting him.]
And I will do whatever's necessary to save him in the end. No matter the cost.
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But there doesn't need to be manipulation here, not between someone that's become so dear to her. Alina has done nothing here but whisper reassurances and love her for who she is, all of her brokenness and faults laid bare out in the open. If she's said this much, she can tell the truth. Just a bit more, it won't hurt anything.]
I had no other choice. He never would have let me go otherwise.
[She's still crying, but she lifts her head and tries to compose herself a little. Wiping at her tears, she ignores the way her lip quivers and tries to keep speaking despite the way it makes her voice tremble.]
The Doctor and I, we -
[Pausing, she swallows the lump that's formed in her throat.]
There's plenty of ways to say you love someone. And even if we never have said it in words, the Doctor and I, our love was so strong that we became dangerous together. So dangerous that losing me meant the Doctor became something I hope you never have to see. He was willing to do anything, to sacrifice the entire universe, if it meant bringing me back. And if we had stayed together, it would have cost the entire universe. As long as we were together, everyone else was at risk. When I realized, I knew I had to make him forget. If he didn't remember, he could move on. The universe would be safe, and he would be able to be happy. I sacrificed the thing I love the most to ensure that.
[Only now she's here, where two Doctors are. Neither of them know the way their story ends, neither of them know that she dies. She doesn't think she needs to tell Alina that. That much should be obvious with the way she's just broken down here. Of course, it also may give some insight into why she's terrified of forgetting him. It's all that will be left in the end. Her memories of him and what they had together. But Alina is right. She'll do what needs to be done in the end, if it means protecting him.]
And I will do whatever's necessary to save him in the end. No matter the cost.